“Prayer is simply talking with God where you can reveal your deepest hurts and emotions. You can tell God, honestly, what is on your heart. Unburden yourself before God and know that He hears you, cares for you and loves you beyond imagination.” – Dr. Ramona
I’ve been in non married relationship for 5 yrs. Once I made my commitment to the Lord, us being a non married relationship started to severally weigh on me. I bought us rings, asking him to commit himself to the Lord with me to stay abstinent, until we got married. He declined. He also thinks/accuses/condems me of committing infidelity with coworkers/others, having secrete files/emails/phones and other things. Non of it is true. I’ve had many things broken torn abused verbally mentally physically emotionally. I stay, I pray every day for change. Some days are hopeful and seem promising. Then he falls again.
I’m not sure what to have for a prayer. I feel stuck. I don’t want to leave him cause I love him, I know I should, because of all the pain suffering I endure almost daily. It is a battle every single day. I pack up all my stuff, sometimes already on the road, and find myself coming back in tears.