I can’t take the abuse any longer. My husband was diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia, December 5, 2019. It’s going on three years of trying to really leave him. I tried many times to leave and failed every time.
I know I don’t love myself, I know that or I could of left years ago. I love Jesus more then I love myself. I believe he showed me how my faith and trust kept me safe. I want to love myself so I can love my adult children differently, love my new dog with everything in me. I need prayer to find me, to find peace, to feel joy, and to be free, a freedom so I can laugh again, feel again, and breath a new breath. Pray I can do this right and the ugly thought of satan telling me “hey remember what the Bible says, “submit yourself to your husband.” God told me it’s not the kind of submission. Yesterday was my last verbal attack, my last message to him, and my last day of being a victim. Pray I’m fully restored, pray I’m filled with the Holy Ghost, pray my mind stays on Jesus, that I don’t slip, pray I get through my grief with God leading. Pray God puts me where I need to be. Pray for my mind. 30 years is to long, enough is enough. Today is a new day, today is freedom for me. I felt a burden lifted this morning.
Thank you all in advance, and thank you for praying for me.