“Prayer is simply talking with God where you can reveal your deepest hurts and emotions. You can tell God, honestly, what is on your heart. Unburden yourself before God and know that He hears you, cares for you and loves you beyond imagination.” – Dr. Ramona
Hi. I was here last month but was not too coherent – my mom, who was my safe place and confidante, was dying of lung cancer and I was a mess. She passed into eternity on Jan 6. I am now alone with my abuser. Been together over 25 yrs. He is much younger than me and treats me more like a mother than a wife. He is verbally and physically abusive, not to mention neglectful of me. He has held one full time job since we moved here 4.5 yrs ago which lasted a year and ended almost 2 yrs ago. We can no longer pay our bills. I receive disability but it’s not enough. He goes out the door daily to “play” with his friends, instead of look for work, while I handle all the details of our life. Woe to me if I express upset over his lack of concern for our predicament. My stress level is through the roof. We moved to a new state to be closer to my mom and family as I have severe lung disease and wanted to be near family as my physical struggles increased. Other family moved away 2 yrs ago, leaving just mom and me. I have a good church and I go to counseling, but I have not fully let the cat out of the bag when it comes to the abuse I endure. I am embarrassed that I have kept it to myself all these years. I am physically unable to do much except sit, I am on oxygen, and told I need a lung transplant or a miracle. My family refuses to help me as long as husband is in my life – this puts me in a horrible bind. Yes, I still love him. Was hoping I could just die in my sleep, but looks like that’s not what God has in mind. Only He can untangle this mess I’ve made for myself. Thank you for your prayers and all you do for women in crisis.